pretending.....

maybe physically it gets tired to be smiling all the time when in fact deep down you are bleeding non stop. call me persistance, call me irritating. i jus had to try one last time to maeke it work
but i din realise all along i was the fool. i was kidding myself into believing time heals the problems.
when i finally pluck up courage to make the move, i was CRUSHED. he just din wan to see me nor talk to me. guess its the final hit. i wanna move on. even though i need time to heal, i reali wanna move on. no point holding on to someone who doesnt love me for who i am.

but deep down i m still pretending......