my first thailand trip ~ 4th May

i realise i never blog on my so-far only thailand trip... wahaha
i went bangkok on my birthday this year ~ 4th May.
it was fun... company is by now ex-bf... haha.. oh well still friends la. but i decide to blog anyway...

not anywhere soon

its not anywhere soon
will inform ...
never really think about it
dun wanna make myself upset...

i'm not feeling well..signing out...

fotos... suvin bday~

finally uploaded some pics from my new camera... haha...

sarcastic

dun ask me to write, only to criticise.
my english ok ......

xiang dao ni.

yesterday had dinner with my mummy.
was a sumptous meal, but at the same time we both felt sad
we thought of her... e one who left us so suddenly....
we sort of still cant believe she's really gone...
the sudden bouts of missing her just strikes us at times.
seeing her clutches at my house makes me all sappy.
mummy nearly weep but she held her tears.....
at that moment i know we both hao xiang ta.....
my granny.....

pauper

im a pauper..... im counting down the days to my pay..... OMG.....
with christmas coming, can anyone grant me a xmas wish .... $$$ ??
haha ~

the jewel box

i went suvin's 21st birthday yesterday. haven manage to upload the pictures yet. so pls stay tune for the photos.

last nite went mount faber - jewel box. nice place.
jewel box is having this event to see artificial snow.. haha in other words bubbles in the shape of snow. hur hur.
the admission is $3 which will be rebate if u have a drink in any one of their bar. u can take a ride in their cable car as well from mount faber to sentosa. a round about thingy which cost $10.90 which is really expensive (cause mentally i compare to genting prices) - HAHA!.
the toilets are beautiful. with a superb night view.
check it out when you are free!

past blog: picture

the uncle with the spongebob boxers and singlet in a library.... fugly!!!

just a time

counting down - 22days.... haha

very full & very sleepy

just had lunch -in for whole company...
chicken rice... super full......

walk around a bit......
receive my 1st xmas present request...., receive my 1st xmas present also.
money money money... not enough money.... haha

went to watch happy feet yesterday.
it was ok only. maybe too many penguins spoil the broth.. haha.

nx cartoon to watch - open season.

...mistress?

feeling like a mistress.... hai.....

photo whoring

rainy season

recently its like the rainy season. every where is rain.
morning/noon/night....
to b honest i enjoy night rain... cause its cooler to have a good night rest.
but i hate afternoon rain n evening rain cause on my way home from work i will get my feet wet. yikes.....
think meantime also stay away from sentosa... in case rain spoils the whole day itinery.

its my 5th day at work.
haven been doing anything.
reading up on company's profile, upstream news on shipping market, filing, printing and running errands.
to be honest its really a bit boring....
boss says to enjoy the honeymoon period of slacking while i can.... sianz....
but its like everyone is doing something n i'm not so its really bored..... feel redundant....
so far so good the people here are rather friendly. ranging around my age so its ok....

month of dec coming n my pocket goin to have a hole
birthday, first month celebration, housewarming... OMG, kill me please.
$$$
can anyone tell me the fastest way to get money? PLEASE DO NOT ASK ME TO ROB A BANK OR SELL MY ASS!
feasible ideas.
think soon i'll wan to post my xmas present list... haha

stay tune!!!

time check : count down to 25days......

signing out!

happy birthday MUMMY!!!!!!

happy birthday to the most precious person in this world wide world ---- my dearest mum

happy birthday to uu
happy birthday to uuuu
happy birthday to mummyyyyyy
happy birthday to uuuuuuuuuuuu.....

hugz & kisses:
frm ur naughty daughter.

first day

first day at the office today
guess what - my boss is sick so officially i hang around and do nothing until 6pm....
OMG!!!
and office no usage of msn.
sian.......

back

he's back ~
should i be pleased or pissed?
i really dont know.
its not the hurry about ipod but more liked whether is it "du re ru nian"
sighzzzz ~~

H.O.T

weather so hot..... really cant take it anymore....
even with drizzles of rain, the weather is still scorching hot and temperatures are rising.
my heatiness n temper is also rising
my air con is down also. the air that is coming out of the air con is liked MINIMUM lo.....
haiz... how... what to do.
very broke, dont know want to get some one to come and service my air con or not lei.....
i think it has something to do with the solar system. the position not right lah.
i think wear minimum also doesnt help....
gosh... help.... i want eat ice cream!!! cool off!

get me one tub of ben & jerrys!!! NOW!!!!

woman & pampering....

woman love to pamper themself. so no doubt i m one of them. haha.

went to get a trim and touch up on my hair. endure the long 1.5 hrs.

after 1.5hrs, my head feel lighter by 0.2kg, n one shade lighter and fringer shorter. and worse, wallet bigger hole. haiz.... but all for the sake of one thing - BEAUTY.

not that i m pretty. so that is why i need to rely on extra pampering.

haa... bullsxxx!!!!!

ciao!!! ~

In Too Deep . . . . .

i think i am in too deep for you.
i realise its not puppy love. not an infatuation. but honest n serious mature feelings.
i don't like it.
its scaring the wits out of me.
and its making me really dumb.

a msg for QINZ

dont cry too long if u lose that special someone.think hard!why are you sad? is it cause u love him? or r u jus feeling all weird inside of you cause he's not there anymore?cry when at that moment he break off with you or he left.cry when he turn his back on you but dont cry if you know he love you!if you love him, tell him that. Get him back!....
if he doesnt love you anymore, jus be glad he ever love you.remember the good and forget the bad.if he still loves you, prove/show him you love him as much.and if you do get him again, hold on to him cause the next time u were to cry again will be the day he propose to you.....

an old blog posting but still an existing resolution list

i was browsing thru my multiply page, the one i have been using until i decided to use blogspot for my online blogging.
i came across a piece of blog which i still smile when i see it.
the first piece was in mar, follow by an update in july.
now the latest here in my blog page.

the piece goes:
happen to come across this blog dated jul 15th:

wish:
- i can be more independent. to be able to face up to everything. - erm, still ok.
- to be more confident - still very much lacking
- to upgrade myself - no time now. haha but will get down to doing it
- to love myself more - not trying anymore but its a MUST
- to make more time for family and friends - arranging!
- to get back what i lost - once lost, hard to regain
- to lose fats and not gain it back (=P) - haven even accomplished 1% , pretty much the same.
- a new hp - erm think since last year still the same hp. nokie 7610. a bit lagging liao. any sponsor???
- a new wardrobe - still adding (haha!) FOREVER
- to earn more $$ - i must!!! i have to... cause i want go somewhere really nice for my 2007 birthday
- trying to get higher pay job - erm on the path to finding it
- to have nicer hair (haha!) - shorter and frizzier.... darn!

see the difference now.... haiz..... haha the red comments are added for this post. haha.....
its cool to have a blog, cause after that i can look back and see past life what have i been doing.... basically NOTHING.... haha

break ups and the common reasons. DUHZ!!

year 2006 marks alot of break ups among my circle of friends.
if there is getting together, there is sure to be break ups....
forever? ever lasting? - does this really exist.
of course personally i've seen a lot of great matching couples, and i am really happy for them.
but often each of us has a sad story behind every great ending. we will definitely hit a bad patch or experience bad moments in the path of our love life
well, its been almost half a yr since my own break up , and well, im coping.. still living my same boring life. haha.... i wasnt thinking this way until recently. i thought break up was really hurting... like really really pain. but recently the demise of my grandma made me realise break up is just 1/10 fraction of the pain from losing a love one forever. that pain is really really bad...... the kind that causes my water tap t0 keep flowing and flowing and flowing. its like a bad tap leak.
every couple breaks up for relatively few similar reasons:
- character clash
-feelings fade
-third party
-fear of commitment

think these are the few usual break up reasons that each n every of my friend has to take for their break ups.
character clash, some people get together and in the process learn n understand more about the other party. during this process, we can know if we are suitable or not. but if one of the party terms a break up due to character clash when they have already been together for like 5-7 years, that is really a bit duhz.... isnt it obvious enough during early times if two are suitable or not. if you are still in your early teens, i can understand caus you haven experience the difference a working environment can make to you. but if you already reached your 20s , then i think you should be having a clearer head to think clearer. correct me if i m wrong. but isnt this the case??? if you say u never place a r/s close to ur heart to understand if your characters are suitable den there isnt any r/s to speak of.
feelings fade ??? - every r/s starts with a spark somewhere and it is up to the couple to keep the sparks alive. dont expect it to stay alive and not having to do anything about it. it is so stupid. in every r/s , starting is ai qing, when it reached a comfort zone, it gradually becomes gan qing. this is liked a norm for everyone. gan qing is when u really get to know a person already. really love a person for who he or she is. if feelings fade, what is the reason? no more sparks?
3rd party - this is nothing to comment on. both party are at fault. sorry all 3 parties are at fault.
commitment phobia? - this is one general reason GUYS give when they break up with gals. they have too much in their thick skull, they decided they cant face the gals, knowing marriage is on the cards. but HEY, who are u all to tell us whether we want you guys to marry us or not. please this is liked the 21st century. not just because u are good to us, we expect marriage round the corner. there are many factors for marriage and many different reasons for marriage. trust me, we gals are not really that keen to pounce on marriage without thinking also. its like a forever thing you know. marriage is not cheap and so is seperation after that. so just dun base everything on your own thinking. if we want marriage, the most we will is talk about it first. everything can talk. that is one of the reason we have mouth and 2 ears. to Listen!!!

i m not an expert when it comes to relationship.i still read man are from mars, women are from venus. haha. i m still learning.
i have my own problems as well. but hey i want all around me to be happy.
to my recent gal frens who just broke up with their other half, cheer up gals. all are fated. dun pressure yourself. take a short break first. make urself pretty. pamper yourself. after that listen to your heart. see what it says and where it takes you. cry if u have to in the initial stages but after that you will realise its not that you dun wan to cry but instead nothing comes out.
you can call me anytime if you need anyone to talk to. u all got the number.
cheer up babes!

photos

i tried blogging on the previous post but din came out.. darnz.... this post has better work!
the first car is my favourite...small and cuteeee.... but i got a perchant for fast n slick car. the lambo (last pic), way cool..... wanted to take a pic of a lexus baby but too bad, too many ppl sticking their asses at the seat of the convertible, dun wan to take pic of them so i din take any pic of the convertible.... haiz......
i heard another motor show coming in december and this time its FOC... sure to have many ppl.... hmmm, see if the gang wants to go take a look... haha

my week end.....

oh well.... friday night what did i do? let me recall... haha..... oh yeah fri i met jena to walk ard orchard and did a bit of damage to my wallet... haiz...... but i just resist the lil girly dress and MEL bag that can put all my junks...... hee..... after tat had dinner with val and came home.... GUAIZ.....

sat i rot at home the whole day.... until evening i went to meet pabu to go chalet..... it was great seeing him..... love the feeling..... haha.... he never fail to cheer me up when im in the crappiest mood....

sun... (today)... had breakfast at coffee bean.... den chill a lil. after noon i went to si ma lu with pabu to pray... we walk around a lil den we went to meet to meet ed, bao & fen to go see the motor show..... lots of beautifullllllll carssss... make me so tempted to go take my licence, in case some of you dont know, i have a phobia for driving.... blame it on lousy coordination for my legs and hands... haha....
but the cars are so gorgeous... for some... but this year the show girls standard dropppp...... still a few cute ones here n there but honestly DROP!
went dinner after the show and came home.... now resting on my bed and nuahing... goin shower... will blog again......

p/s: just some pics with this blog.... if you all like cars, u all should go take a look..... might spoil some nice ones that u like

nadia birthday

i think this is a long awaited post but somehow no one wants to be reminded of this day, n the day after and the day after.

but still i wanna post the pictures of family.....

baby isaac aw j.y

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well, at least there was a good news yesterday:
roselyn gave birth to a healthy baby boy isaac. weighing 2.935kg.....
he's really a cute little bundle of joy.....
and me being one of the godma look forward to being part of this new young born's growing up life.

congrats rose & ew for being first time daddy & mummy!

my pain and missing

haven been blogging for a while... was really busy.... its been a very sad sad month for me. a very very painful memory.
i love to watch TV drama and i never thought one day i will be in an actual scene myself.
it hurts liked mad to see my grandma drift away from unconsciouness to non-existent. i couldnt do anything. no amount of tears or words of comfort can bring her back. she is just in real deep pain. pain that is tormenting every part of her body. pain that just results in her vomiting blood everyday in her unconscious state. its horrible.... i couldnt take it. i couldnt accept the fact that the one whom i have known n love since the first day i was born was leaving me... and in this really horrible way. she dont deserve the pain n torture. she had suffered when she was young, so why make her suffer now? perhaps by leaving she is free from all the pain and she will find happiness in another world.
when i hear the equipment signal still life , my heart just stop. tears just flow. i couldnt do anything but whisper to her that we all love her and we just want her to be happy.
everyone will miss her but still we let her have the choice as to which way will she be happier. that is what we can do for her.

note to everyone: thank you for your concern and visits. i appreciate it.

my ''farewell'' dinner with a bunch of nice colleagues

i had dinner with tete, andy & xiuhui. too bad, iris sick cant make it..... shandia has class.
we went the ichiban boshi at esplanade.... yummy food, lovely company.
after that we went to ice monster for shave ice... wow, the ambassador fr the shop is JULIAN HEE... (aww... gorgeous guy)

i will definitely miss them all.....

Hana - Kimi

Rui Xi (Ella) had came back from America when she falls in love with a boy named Zuo Ye Quan after seeing his high jump performance on television. Wanting to get to know him more, she decides to find out all about him and go to the same school as him. But, theres a problem; Quan goes to an all boy's high school! After much persuasion to her family and getting help from her good friend, Rui Xi then disguises herself as a boy and goes to the high school Quan attends.Coincidently, She attends the same class and stays in the same dormitory room with Quan! On her first day of school, she was late and bump onto someone on the way to class. In a hurry, she rushed off. Unknowingly, that guy was Quan. She wanted to be friends with Quan and was very straightforward but was rejected (he thought she was gay). Finding that Rui Xi was rather straightforward,Zhong Jin Xiu Yi(Jiro Wang) befriends Rui Xi. During physical lesson, Everyone found out that Rui Xi was a very fast runner. Even breaking the school's record. Jealous, Xiu Yi challenged her. After the run, she faints. To her rescue was Quan (found out she was a girl but kept it to himself) and he brought her to the school's doctor Mei Tian, who is a gay. He too, found out about Rui Xi's identity but promise to keep it a secret. He soon became her consoler when she needed someone to talk to. Xiu Yi soon falls in love with Rui Xi, but doesn't know that Rui Xi is a girl and keeps suspecting himself of being gay. Quan and Rui Xi soon becomes friend and both starts to develop a very close friendship. Many mishaps and challenges awaits Rui Xi.Will she be able to get her life through high school perfectly, without anyone discovering that she's a girl, but at the same time be close to Zuo Ye Quan ?

feeling like a prude.....

was just msn-ing with jon just now..... pouring my heart out to him.....


ono..<> :
yeah
Jono..<> :
just got up
Jono..<> :
go ahead
Jono..<> :
shoot
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
if u realise the gal u likes ur fren, wat will u do?
Jono..<> :
like that ah
Jono..<> :
there's nothing you can do
Jono..<> :
you love her but she loves someone else
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
will u be mad at ur fren?
Jono..<> :
no
Jono..<> :
unless he potong jalan
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
it happen to my fren n he is super mad. he he thinks his ex is cheap.. hai
Jono..<> :
haa...
Jono..<> :
in a way la
Jono..<> :
then it just means that girl doesn't love him that much
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
true also
Jono..<> :
crystal sent me a msnmsg yesterday
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
betwn them they hve some issues also to result to the break up
Jono..<> :
asking me how i was

Jono..<> :
break up good
Jono..<> :
haa...
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
den did u reply her?
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
so where u went last nite?
Jono..<> :
nope didn't reply
Jono..<> :
went to eagle street pier blow wind
Jono..<> :
sat at a cafe
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
sounds cool lei
Jono..<> :
talk, chatted...
Jono..<> :
walk walk
Jono..<> :
sit down at a bench
Jono..<> :
haa....
Jono..<> :
tasty
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
bench or beach?
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
salty la.. haha
Jono..<> :
bench
Jono..<> :
salty?
Jono..<> :
why?
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
all the sea breeze
Jono..<> :
not sea breeze
Jono..<> :
river breeze
Jono..<> :
not salty at all
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
orh
Jono..<> :
very nice
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
Jono..<> :
and yesterday was cold
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
ar
Jono..<> :
little chilly
Jono..<> :
you ?
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
me?
Jono..<> :
didn't go out
Jono..<> :
?
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
i spend all my time at hme now. duno wats wrong with me
Jono..<> :
Hmm..
Jono..<> :
that's good too
Jono..<> :
jay was like that for a while
Jono..<> :
now he's fine
Jono..<> :
ating this new girl
Jono..<> :
dating
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
prob is i m liked moodless nw
Jono..<> :
you'll be okay
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
i dun even wan to go out. my fren i'm mad
Jono..<> :
haa..
Jono..<> :
save money first, store power, then one time let go
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
ha...
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
even my bro has a gf nw
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
see them l0vey dovey makes me
Jono..<> :
haa...
Jono..<> :
relax
Jono..<> :
now you can enjoy your life
Jono..<> :
spend all your money on yourself
Jono..<> :
pamper yourself
Jono..<> :
it's good la
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
u noe i feel tat i m like lost in myself
Jono..<> :
don't think of the bad, think of the good
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
its like the feeling that i cant understand myself either
Jono..<> :
don't worry
Jono..<> :
everyone is changing and evolving
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
at times i giggle like a mad woman, den suddenly for a period of time i jus dun feel like talking
Jono..<> :
use this time to sort your life out
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
i dun hve confidence in myself anymore
Jono..<> :
that's so like me too
Jono..<> :
have la
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
n i dun meet ppl easily....
Jono..<> :
i think you're looking pretty good lately
Jono..<> :
your msn pic is nice
Jono..<> :
how's that for an ego booster?
Jono..<> :
haa...
Jono..<> :
and i'm nt saying it just to make you feel good
Jono..<> :
you're okay...
Jono..<> :
have some confidence
Jono..<> :
trust me
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
i feel like a prude
Jono..<> :
God has made our other halves and their out there
Jono..<> :
it's only a matter of time before you guys meet
Jono..<> :
so meanwhile, enjoy your life...
Jono..<> :
don't have to go looking for him
Jono..<> :
no la
Jono..<> :
why so down?
Jono..<> :
menses?
Jono..<> :
man i gotta go kay
Jono..<> :
talk to ya later
Jono..<> :
don't think so much aight?
Jono..<> :
you'll be fine
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
hope so
i.s.a - u i - i miss mdm lee kim huay! :
i have been feeling like a prude for a long time already

i always felt better after talking to him but this time round, it feels the same.... boring.....

pretty boys galore

i'm hooked on pretty boys... boys that are out of reach, the closest i can get to them is by placing my pouty lips on my lappy's screen or my plasma tvvvvvv..... thats the pathetic closeness i have towards them. haiz.... why are there so many pretty boys around except in singapore. oh gosh, so disappointing.

i got hooked on ou xiang ju.... one after another... starting with meteor garden 1 & 2, mars, and the list just goes on.... now i go gaga over pretty boys on screen... F4 is so passe already (but i still like zaizai, still a cutie).....

now my ''collection'' of fantasy is:
- Joe Zheng Yuan Chang (It started with a kiss)
- He Jun Xiang Mike (Devil beside me)
- Wu Zun ( tokyo juliet, hana kimi)
- Rain (Full house)
- *shin goon* *yul goon* (Goong)

for Goong, to be honest, all the guys are rather cute...
pretty boyssss..... eye candyyyyyyy

happy birthday joleen

happy birthday joleen!!.....

went ktv and seafood dinner to celebrate joleen's birthday......

;)

switching frequencies

think i m really getting weird.
kelly just called me just now, ask me to go k-ge.... (sing karaoke), but i told her im brokez and the fact that i just ordered mac D delivery.
she was liked - how come you don't go out liao... always hear u stay at home.

it got me thinking.
i am liked this now. i seldom go out. even now when i m on long leave, i choose to stay at home. going to places like sun plaza is also a hassle for me.
i feel different.
in the past, orchard is never far for me. now i find orchard troublesome.
the thought of travelling up and down makes me all weak and 'nuahz'.
gosh what is happening to me??

even when my friend offer to pick me up to go out, i just don't have the mood to go out.
being brokez is one thing. but guess the main thing is i lost my spirit.
being lifeless now.

i stayed at home since i was on leave on thursday till now.
rotting and watching VCDS of idol drama series.
i just finish tokyo juliet in liked 1 day.... the show is nice but a bit draggy.
haven even started watching MY GIRL yet which i have to like return in less den 2 days to my friend.
i was eagerly anticipating watching it but now i don't feel the rush already.

i just don't feel the rush for anything anymore. its really like at a dead monotonous speed.
lost of direction and feeling a sense of betrayal.

i only feel a jolt when i see wu zun on screen.... i just love pretty boys.....

howl

i love this link and dont you just think he's cute.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rLn0QUG1fZw

super nice.....

howl

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rLn0QUG1fZw

depressive disorder

A depressive disorder is an illness that involves the body, mood, and thoughts. It affects the way a person eats and sleeps, the way one feels about oneself, and the way one thinks about things. A depressive disorder is not the same as a passing blue mood. It is not a sign of personal weakness or a condition that can be willed or wished away. People with a depressive illness cannot merely "pull themselves together" and get better. Without treatment, symptoms can last for weeks, months, or years. Appropriate treatment, however, can help most people who suffer from depression.
Major depression is manifested by a combination of symptoms (see symptom list) that interfere with the ability to work, study, sleep, eat, and enjoy once pleasurable activities. Such a disabling episode of depression may occur only once but more commonly occurs several times in a lifetime.
Not everyone who is depressed or manic experiences every symptom. Some people experience a few symptoms, some many. Severity of symptoms varies with individuals and also varies over time.
Depression
Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" mood
Feelings of hopelessness, pessimism
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness
Loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies and activities that were once enjoyed, including sex
Decreased energy, fatigue, being "slowed down"
Difficulty concentrating, remembering, making decisions
Insomnia, early-morning awakening, or oversleeping
Appetite and/or weight loss or overeating and weight gain
Thoughts of death or suicide; suicide attempts
Restlessness, irritability
Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain
People who have low self-esteem, who consistently view themselves and the world with pessimism or who are readily overwhelmed by stress, are prone to depression. Whether this represents a psychological predisposition or an early form of the illness is not clear.
Women experience depression about twice as often as men.1 Many hormonal factors may contribute to the increased rate of depression in women particularly such factors as menstrual cycle changes, pregnancy, miscarriage, postpartum period, pre-menopause, and menopause. Many women also face additional stresses such as responsibilities both at work and home, single parenthood, and caring for children and for aging parents.
Depressive disorders make one feel exhausted, worthless, helpless, and hopeless. Such negative thoughts and feelings make some people feel like giving up. It is important to realize that these negative views are part of the depression and typically do not accurately reflect the actual circumstances. Negative thinking fades as treatment begins to take effect. In the meantime:
Set realistic goals in light of the depression and assume a reasonable amount of responsibility.
Break large tasks into small ones, set some priorities, and do what you can as you can.
Try to be with other people and to confide in someone; it is usually better than being alone and secretive.
Participate in activities that may make you feel better.
Mild exercise, going to a movie, a ballgame, or participating in religious, social, or other activities may help.
Expect your mood to improve gradually, not immediately. Feeling better takes time.
It is advisable to postpone important decisions until the depression has lifted. Before deciding to make a significant transition change jobs, get married or divorced discuss it with others who know you well and have a more objective view of your situation.
People rarely "snap out of" a depression. But they can feel a little better day-by-day.
Remember, positive thinking will replace the negative thinking that is part of the depression and will disappear as your depression responds to treatment.
Let your family and friends help you.

a note to all

alone in my room. thinking of a lot of things. i realise i never told my friends what i felt and wanted to tell them from the bottom of my heart.
let me just say how i feel not in alphabetical order so my friends pls think the 1st one is most important and the last one the least important.

zan: i want zan to be happy. dun stay at the same point doing things for the person that you sould not do for. i can understand the heart pain and the soft heart that gives in. softness is the point that makes a lot of woman's 'death' in relationship. personally i am like this as well.
kel: i want kel to be sure of what she want. let herself be happy with the one who truly makes her happy. as women we all wish that our better half is someone we can rely on, stable, mature and ''gu jia'' but deep down love is most important. find someone you truly love. and if you found that someone already i am really happy for you.
grace: my happily married friend. i m really happy for her that she found someone who dotes on her so much and can stay with her through happiness n sadness. be happy friend. but remember friends are important as well.

roselyn: your baby coming soon. excited about the birth. i know you will be a great mummy. u have a great hubby and loving family...
joleen: my wish is to attend your wedding. i know this is what you really wish for. and i know you will be very happy about it. i want you to be happy. and sometimes being happy is when you are back to your old self again.
valerie: i want val to finally settle down. in her lovely nest. i want to attend her chinese wedding and wait for her to give birth to white white chubby babies as well.

bao bao: i want bao bao to be sure what she wants in life but at the same time dun forsake the old. old may not always be holding you forward but afterall they are part of the process which we grew up from. they let us learn what we need to learn to walk down the steps in our future.
number 3: i want number 3 to be happy. although i dunno her long but we can really click. i know number 3 is a very simple gal who just needs a simple life. someone to care for her and someone to be there for her.

ed: sometimes certain things in life cannot be forced. i know how u feel but u also know that if u care for someone u will want the person to be happy. be cool and succeed in life.. that is most important for a man.
pabu: take care. be happy. don't stress too much. you will get your gf of 8yrs back. u jus have to have faith.

jon: i know this time you are better. but i also know u r hurting inside. but u r so much stronger than me. always my buddy.

jena: young and lovely fren. always chirpy. stay that way.

chipmunk: although you are my pillar when i m sad. i know at times u are sad too. always a friend. thank you.

i have many things deep down i don't really know how to express. but pardon me, i need to be by myself. take care.

my weekend

roarrrrrrr another week end pass without me even manage to get enuf fun... geez...

last week end was spent eating n eating....
friday went DXO with ''number 3'' , her fren cheryl, kelly & zan. we went chill out at the rooftop live singing. coincidentally one of the singer is my pri sch mate, joel.... he's change a lot wor. used to be short n scrawny. now tall and beefier. voice is not too bad as well... ;)
ohhhh, and we bump into alvin and his guy gang.... almost all of his frens was attracted by number 3, which i am not suprise. she can really dance lo. liked energizer battery. the wonders of youth... sighhhhhh.....

saturday went for yi quan's 2nd birthday party. my my, the boy is getting cuter lo.... *smiles* , so hyper.... in the night went for jena's 21st birthday... poolside party at warren country club... the bday gal was pretty (as always).... pictures posted.... 21 years old liao gal!!!! woo hoo!!!! can do anything u want liao. heh heh......

sunday went town walk around a bit and had dinner den it was home sweet home.

don't you all jus wish week end doesnt end so soon..... GRRRRRR

note: countdown - 21days.

i want to increase my EQ/IQ

i feel lost recently.....
maybe cause i am facing a soon-to-be jobless crisis....
oh well i m that unlucky. my dept is closing down , so OUT i go from Samsung...
im sad, cant bear to leave my colleagues but at the same time, i noe if its time to move on, its time to move on....
market is so dry now that i dun realli have the motivation left.
have send a few resumes but no response yet....
ppl give me a chance!!!!
screammmmmm!!!

another thing:
i want to break free.
i dun wan to care anymore, dun wan to worry anymore, dun wan to be sad abt him anymore.
what for.....
to him:
i care alot about you. even more than you can give me credit for.
i have never rejected helping, never turn you down when you ask me, never expecting anything back in gratitude.
i worry abt you, worry are you well, are you working too hard, are you unhappy at times.
i cry when you give me attitude, frown when i dun get reply from you.


i hate being the dumb ass who grins to herself when u express a little concern, when u send a simple sms such as 'morning'.... i hate it!!! i hate wanting to tell you my well being, my problems , wishing u can just express a little concern.... wishful thinking! i reali question my own EQ/IQ.

i care alot about you and i still love you. but i think its time to let go... its pass my time frame. i want to cherish you, cherish what we have but maybe we just dun have enough strength to hold this bond together.
take care of yourself.