HOT !!!

(credits to DasmondKoh)

Michelle's tuxedo outfit is HOT!!!
i like..
but the bf wun like.

hour glass??

yesterday my msn nick read as:

"baby says he dun nd to get me a watch anymore :/ "

my fren IM me:

"cause you got an hour glass figure? "

me:
"can i take that as a complement"

he:
"pls do"

:)))))

who the fuck?

its quite frustrating that i have to constantly clear a load of shit that i did not create.
it wasnt meant to be this way if humans were not so stubborn by nature.

who the fuck invented ego & pride?

i hope you are happy people are 'killing' themselves over who to keep the ego and who to step dirt on the pride.

They had TEPPANYAKI with me! on a hilltop!

we need bibs again!!!

START drooling!!!

officially a year older, perhaps a year wiser?

Officially im 2x years old now.
thank you to those who sms me to wish me on my special day for the special day of this year.
to be honest i was a lil bit disappointed at some who failed to rem. but my intentions cannot be forced onto others.
i was exceptionally sad about someone who failed to wish me. in fact im rather disheartened.
but anyway whatever.
nw tat im one year older, is it time to be wiser? haha.
:)
hope 2009 will be smooth sailing....!

Often Sorry can mean different meanings

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满
载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷
不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女
孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩
眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起” 。


男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，
直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着
急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那
么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，
任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错
了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的
他们每天都充满着笑容。

—— “对不起”的快乐 。



大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都
休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委
屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续
了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这
样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在
家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中
醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给
我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

—— “对不起”也是一种承诺。



婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太
了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些
小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩
问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以
前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜
深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，
女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

—— “对不起”，谎言的开始。


渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是
奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超
市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从
前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的
人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙
了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

—— “对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。



女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了
她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也
是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这
个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来
到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是
那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个
正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个
男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转
身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫
喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，
对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

—— 这样的“对不起”太伤人。


男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心
工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就
是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是
半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲
着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。

“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到
你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离
开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一
桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为
你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来
应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”

男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女
孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是
女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

—— 原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一
个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱
的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对
不起......

What i want for my bday!

can i ask for cash?
seriously im in need of cash.
i accept internet-banking too :)
hee.....

in 2009, i really dun wanna cry

i hope whatever curse that has landed on me will please please pleaseeeeeeee be lifted.
past 2 years i spend this period of the year crying.
i really dun want to spend this year crying.
please.


i know im not smart but im open to comments.
i cant be 100% perfect but i will try to be a better person.

i wish the tide will make me, will make us a stronger person, a stronger team.

get well soon!!!

get well soon MAG & DOM!!!!

10 chapters

i got a paper in less den 24hours and i got 10chapters to absorb.
should i just burn the notes and drink it?

SHIT. so ridiculous!!

~tired~

Sometimes, I am so tired of everything that I have no idea how to let it out. I have no idea how to express it and I have no idea what to do about it. This sudden overwhelming of emotions & stress are making me irritated by the second. I have no idea that that would affect me so badly, even though I am trying to take it easy. I have no idea why, I feel so upset. I have no idea why, this chapter of my life is so upsetting. This is overwhelming. Am I feeling too much? am i wanting too much so much but my capability is just that little to handle it. i over-estimated my importance, and my own ability.

-.-'''

i was chatting with Qinz via email.
tat woman forever zou bo at work recently.
the conversation came to a point i asked this,

ffz: eh ask u ar, is it rude for me to request $ as bday present.

qinz: no la! its not like we never give red packet before!

ffz: ahahaha
ai si ni le!!!!

:)

can request amt not?
LOL LOL

Qinz: Lol
We respect the birthday girl
But the presenter of the birthday gifts reserves the rights to change terms
and conditions prior to the actual day
LOL

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-.-'''''

a gal & a girlfriend

its hard being a gal.
its even harder being a girlfriend.

sigh!~

Babies Galore

Since 2009 started, its babies galore.
Presenting two new babies who usher themselves close to me:

Baby Jun Kai :)



baby Aaden

BUG ME PLEASE

i
am
being
very
very
very
cranky!!!!!

and i got no one to scream at...
no one...

and a lizard has to freak me out early this morning.
and i got two not-yet-reach-me-mails ... its mailed out last tues/weds.
oh great.....

can someone jus call/bug me and let me scream at....
pleaseeeeeee

OMFG!!!!

shop to destress, and end up stress cause you shop.

school's bothering the shit out of me.
took a min off and bought something to destress myself from all the datelines and last min cramming.

nice not?



i hope i can carry it off as well as beatrice.

ok! back to tutorials nw. oh fish!

twitter

should i start twittering?

but den again, i dun wanna end up like john mayer, who choose to twitter den cuddle up with JENNIFER ANISTION.
That guy's an idiot.
Don't think i will be like ashton kutcher, who posted pics of demi moore steaming his shirt in her BIKINI.
woohhhh too much details.

i guess i will be like cruz teng.
twitter cause everyone's twittering.

LOL

daugher? worth how much?

Life is much simple when you know:

1. go home there is packed food for you. instead you find only packed food for the younger one.

2. talks at home doesnt revolve around money. because of YOU i get amounts of stress.

3. there is really a genuine sincere thought to sponsor/lighten one semester of my sch loan. but i guess its just empty words.

im hurt.
i duno wat to say to you anymore.
i keep trying to be happy. but i have to keep fighting off your temper/ your requests.
if i can, i will do.
if i cant, im sorry i cant.
if you think the younger one is better den so be it.
anyway a daughter is always water tat is splash on the pavement, worthless.
many times u say u are not as traditional as dad, but i beg to differ.
in fact, you tink so highly of your son.
if given the same financial support, i do tink i can do better den him.
why dont you ask him to try working full time and study?

i guess none of you know my feelings.
you two are so bonded so i guess im jus the black sheep.
after you broke yr promise, i realise i cant trust anything anymore.
you make me feel like im the unreasonable one.
thank you.

ms god-damn-mother-fucking-CB mood!

i think miss god-damned-mother-fucking-CB-mood came and find me again.
im feeling really in a low god damn mood.
i need a strong alcoholic drink and no replies! wth!

happy birthday mich!

happy birthday michellleeeeeee yeowwwwww...
i jus had to put ur surname, scare ppl duno which michelle is it...
hee...

i wish the bday gal - stay LOVELY forever.
but upon her request i added another...
--- hope you get richer and richer ------

LOL
LOL

loves of love,
isa

lifestyle checklist needed

i need to keep my lifestyle in check!

That means:
1. less oily food, more vege, more fruits, less oily meat and more fish!

2. less snacking! less chips/chocs(hw can i resist my all-time love)/sweets/gassy stuff

3. less shopping! - yes i know ive said it many many many times but what can a gal do when she sees pretty stuff?

4. less RED figures in my bank account - its depleting till i cant see the end of the tunnel...

5. less slacking and more time & effort into my books - exams coming, i m still not the least gan jiong.

6. less lazing ard and more exercise.

now wheres my cute ballpoint to let me start a checklist!

happy birthday machi!

Happy birthday my machi mei mei!

i know things has been hectic and stress for you now. be it school or work.
but stay strong. :)
everyone can see ur hard work!

no matter what, stay happy, stay chirpy.
most importantly stay the way you always have been!

this is another year we are going thru the first machi's bday.
there will be many many to come :)

hugsssss...

Juicy News! - Look closely, there is a hidden secret

Xin.sg - Wednesday, March 25
Every cloud has a silver lining. The woman behind the success of Hong Kong's heavenly king is finally getting her well-deserved reward.

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After 24 years of silent support, Carol Chu is finally becoming Mrs. Lau. She will be marrying Andy Lau in end April and their guest list has been finalized. Among the guests included Miu Kiu Wai, Wong Yat Wa and Feon who are of the Five Tigers and hot star babe were credited for their success in the 1980s TVB drama and 2008.

Hong Kong Oriental Sunday recently saw Chu shopping for her wedding dowry at North Point, Hong Kong. It was also reported that the wedding is will take place end of April and not Apr 6 as rumored. Lau, who always act with caution, screened his guest list very strictly.

Friends from showbiz who would be invited include Miu Kiu Wai and Wong Yat Wa, two of his friends from the 1980s TVB "Five Tigers". His old friends Isabelle Pan and Sandra Ng will not be invited.

It was reported that Lau was seen in February in Malaysia, meeting with Chu and her parents – Margaret & David to discuss their wedding matters. According to reliable sources, Oriental Sunday reported that the actual wedding date is in end April, after Lau's concert in Kuala Lumpur on Apr 27.

The wedding will last for three days because Chu is from an influential family and Lau would like the affair to be a low profile yet grand one. Chu's family and friends, and Lau's immediate family and close friends will only grace the wedding. Miu and Wong and their spouses are the only artistes to be invited so far.

Though the wedding will not take place on Apr 6 as rumored, Lau will still spend the day in Malaysia with his fiancée to celebrate her birthday and to send out wedding invites to Chu's family and friends, adding special meaning to Chu's birthday.

Further to that news,

Apparantly when invitation cards were sent out, feon was appalled. she din expected that Miu Kiu Wai will be bringing his current squeeze, Melinda Tan. Apparantly feon was once irritated by Melinda's constant washing at her house bath room.
No invitation card was send to Isabelle Pan. As reporters Interviewed her, her reply was - "No comments, not free."

End of report.
Daily Apple.

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hahahaha
it started off as a joke by a colleague, Feon.
Further to that i added the ending part.

LOL LOL....
i do wish andy will invite me though.
haaaa... :)

Caution. some of you might experience discomfort.

i think ive been really down on my luck.
doc say i have shingles. cause of the rashes on my back.
haiii...

No one knows for sure what causes the chickenpox virus to become activated to cause shingles. Some possibilities include the following:

Stress
Fatigue
A weakened immune system (This may be age-related, disease-related, or a drug-related decrease in ability to keep the chickenpox virus in an inactive state.)
Cancer (i hope not!)
Radiation treatments (i hope not!)
Injury of the skin where the rash occurs

Shingles Symptoms
Depending on the nerves involved, shingles can affect many parts of the body.

The first symptom of shingles is often extreme sensitivity or pain in a broad band on one side of the body. The sensation can be itching, tingling, burning, constant aching, or deep, shooting, or "lightning bolt" pain.
Typically, 1-3 days after the pain starts, a rash with raised, red bumps and blisters erupts on the skin in the same distribution as the pain. They become pus-filled, then form scabs by 10-12 days.
The rash disappears as the scabs fall off in the next 2-3 weeks, and scarring may result.

---
oh well.
everything's been on the down side for me....
now shingles and its itching the shite out of me! hate it!

current new 'fav' hobby

soooo muchhhh 'fun'
dateline: 21st march 2359.

too much stress vs too much pride

im been haunted by vomitting and a headache tat wun go away.
its hurting so much, even my ears are painful.
and guess what - im in school now.

i reali dun expect you to understand but at least not react in this way.
its reali hurting.

ive been in a snappy mood and i reali dun wanna snap at you.
last nite while doing my assignments i started crying.
mag says im too stressed.
doc says i've tension stress.
i really duno.
its like i feel that going to sch is such a chore now.
i dread having to head to sch after a day of work.
i dread having to burn wk ends to get assignments done.
i know
i BLOODY KNOW THAT THEY ARE JUST SACRIFICES FOR TAT STUPID PC OF PAPER AND THE JOY OF WEARING THAT FUCK SQUARE HAT.
but im really tired.
i wan to give up but deep dwn my pride at being called a failure is holding me back.
another 1.5yrs more.
oh... and one more fuck thing - my exams falls before, over and after my bday.
GREAT.
if i flunk any papers, it will just be a glorious bday rite??!!!
self pity?

How could you?

HOW COULD YOU? By Jim Willis, 2001

When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend.

Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a bellyrub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together.

I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.

Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.

She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy.

Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love."

As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would've defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.

There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.

Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family.

I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers."
You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life.

You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too. After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?"

They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me.

When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited. I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room.

A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.

She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?"

Perhaps because she understood my dog speak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place.

And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her. It was directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.


A Note from the Author: If "How Could You?" brought tears to your eyes as you read it, as it did to mine as I wrote it, it is because it is the composite story of the millions of formerly "owned" pets who die each year in American & Canadian animal shelters.

Anyone is welcome to distribute the essay for a non-commercial purpose, as long as it is properly attributed with the copyright notice.

Please use it to help educate, on your websites, in newsletters, on animal shelter and vet office bulletin boards. Tell the public that the decision to add a pet to the family is an important one for life, that animals deserve our love and sensible care, that finding another appropriate home for your animal is your responsibility and any local humane society or animal welfare league can offer you good advice, and that all life is precious. Please do your part to stop the killing, and encourage all spay & neuter campaigns in order to prevent unwanted animals.

Jim Willis

p/s: even if im nt a fanatic dog lover, this article brought a tear to my eyes.

who invented period?

sometimes i wonder who invented menstration?
god? eve?

at occasional times, im truly happy to see the timely period filled up.
but i dread the pre-menstration period.

it gets on my nerves!

i suppose/ should say most gals will feel the same as me.

before the period descend on me, the signs bug me madly....

1. i munch and munch and munch.
2. i get cramps on and off and on and off.
3. back ache! i experienced one time last sat, i tot i was going to die.
4. pimples. oily skin. bloated fat face.
5. bloated tummy (already got tummy, nw still bloated :/ ) , resulting i cant wear certain outfits cause it shows terribly.
6. i get weird mood swings and super sleepy tendency.

GOSH!~
nw tat im TANNED, i look even weird bloated. eurgh!

NOW tell me who invented menstration that leads to pre-menstration symptons?

school...

im in school nw. Yippie do da day! :/
Waste of a gd sat noon... Zzzz

Im blogging in class nw via my nokia e71

what do you call a chio bu who is full from lunch?

what do you call a chio bu who is full from lunch?
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rain. . .

on rainy days like this, theres nuthing i wish best den to do the stuff i love.

if im in the office, i get cravings for a hot cuppa coffee, top with extra milk to make it all creamy n sweet.
*slurp*

if i m at home, i like to surf net in bed with my comforter around me. accompanied by eeyore, minnie & goldie.
*sigh comfortably*

if im at baby's home, i wan to cuddle next to him and just lying there *no R rated stuff here*
haaha.

nothing beats:

driving around aimlessly on the expressway,
soft music blasting on the background.
raindrop tapping outside.

sharing a hot sundae and fries take out from MAC.
chatting about wat we did in the week.
and just being with each other.

:)

one time? two time? three time? many times?

love is falling in love with the person over n over again.

NOW! hw many times did i fall in love with the bf?
*pondering*

not my fault.

anything, anyone, can change.
you've change if you din notice.

so dun blame me if your change made me changed too.

PUIIIII!!!!

ive got a huge zit on my nose.
5chapters to cram into my pea brain.
a paper on sunday (pui!)
my thighs and feet are peeling from the sun burn effect.
and i cant wear shorts this wk end.

damn!
it just doesnt get any better doesnt it.
:/

a dedication to my friend roselyn.

the greatest love a child can get is the warm support from a mother's love.

im walking on sunshine woo hoo!

some ppl's been asking me hw did i spend my valentine's day with the bf.
oh well. answer - nuthing.
he had to work till v late in the end.
so we went out only at 10plus, was already supper time.
we din end up going OVEREASY. boringgg...

BUT the next day was a whole lot of fun!!!
for a year plus i haven seen sentosa.

and im super burnt now!
(tats because we both forgot (or too lazy) to buy sunblock.)
&%^$%^&*%

oh baby! look at the sun the sand and the sea. woo hoo!
(nw you all know why i got burnt!)


while im still fair!


whats a day at the beach without ice cold beer/juices, magazines and a picnic mat.


very very hot wor...


time for a nap!


and nap

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and the end result. :/

wo shao jiao le.....




but still , it was really really fun.
been a long time since we hang out together like this.
Vday or no Vday.

Happy Birthday Zan!

Happy birthday Zan!

although i haven see you in ages, i hope you are doing well.
:)

nw that you got a small biz investment of your own, my wish for you this year is for you to DO REALLY WELL.

May cupid strike you soon...

Hugs and kisses
Isa..

fingers interlocked.

on a small little street way, dim lights from the lamp posts.
a gal and a guy walking slowly to a lil coffee shop for a meal.
suddenly the wind got stronger and chilly.
the gal shivers.

one step ahead of her, the guy stretches out his hand to her.
she reaches out and their fingers interlocked.

instantly the gal felt warm.

Thank you baby.

lazy lazy, belle(y) lazy

im a lazy bugger!
roarr....
cant stand myself smetimes.
its like i cant be bother to move my arse anymore.

im a lazy daughter.
i dun do anything at home until my mother starts showing one of her menopause symptons.

im a lazy gf.
always complaining to bf how n why n when and when i like it.. IM ALWAYS TIRED!
pity the poor fellow.
got to tahan me.

im a lazy student.
i go to school and just stone thru out lectures.
always blur abt submission dates and WHAT to submit.
the way i blur thru my marketing tutorial 1 is a classic.
i cant imagine if i din go to class.
i'll b so dead!
the only reason why i get thru most sem is due to the help of my grp of helpful classmates.

i guess im just a lazy individual.

im even fast becoming a lazy shopper ( or am i already one!)
im shopping online nw. even avoiding the crowds at malls, the need to try and the fun of window shopping.
gosh! lazy bugger.
i tot this way i will save more. but hell no la. im just lying to myself.
many a times i succeed.
:p

im even a lazy dresser!
i am so so so more into one pc outfits. rompers/dresses/tunic.
anything tat dun require me to tink too hard/much abt if-the-above-matches-the-bottom
hell. too much time required.
catch me on wk ends, im in my standard shorts/tee or shorts with a better looking top.
give me havianas over 3inch heels ANYTIME.
save my pretty( NOT! )blistered feet and ugly toes and dry skin!

im a lazy beach-goer
tat explains why im BURNT nw. badly burnt
someone commented tat i look like im suffering from 3rd degree burns.
oh well. i hope not. though the sprinkles of water from the shower head hurts like fucking shit!
much much moisturizing needed.
all these cause me refuse to buy suntan lotion , citing the fact tat sentosa shd have but so happens palawan beach DUN HAVE.
oh well.
lazy arse me refuse to budge from the hammock. tinking the sparse leaves can cover/shade my not-so-teeny body.
im so glad i din get tans in stripes.
tat will be horrendous
so now its itchy, scratchy, pain for me!
:/

right now...
im lazy to continue blogging.

bye!

congrats to mich n ben!

mich decided to officially seal her signature on the sacred marriage vows with ben on 14022009.
Serious young man will take care of her really well.
and im going to get really used to my fren being MRS ANG.
may you two enjoy a blissful marriage.
waiting for dec to arrive!

better.

and he makes me feel better.

walking together.

thank you for walking together with me.

meet my new fren - ms goldie :)

once again my baby surprise me. :) Thank you baby.

carebear i likey!

my lil baby

my lil baby...

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stay tune ~

as in hamlet

Valentine's Day is mentioned ruefully by Ophelia in Hamlet (1600-1601):

To-morrow is Saint Valentine's day,
All in the morning betime,
And I a maid at your window,
To be your Valentine.
Then up he rose, and donn'd his clothes,
And dupp'd the chamber-door;
Let in the maid, that out a maid
Never departed more.

(William Shakespeare, Hamlet, Act IV, Scene 5)

and it means?

i was wondering wat does 11 stalks of roses mean.
does tat mean im the 12th rose?
so i decided to google it:

11 Stalks of roses means "There is only you in my heart"

*smiles*

CNY crazy stunt!

Every chinese new year we never fail to take weird crazy pics. at the weirdest place.
this time - outside grandma hse. jumping at the corridor!





what can i say.
because of them i wun deny my surname's Pan.

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Get well soon!

went to see baby trina today.
gosh she slim dwn so much and she got no strength to walk or talk also.
and she keep coughing cause her lungs are infected.
and there are lil traces of blood.
see her like tat, feel so heart pain.

get well soon k baby!
:)
HUGZZZ...

wear pretty, feel pretty!

yesterday while i was walking back to office after lunch, i was admiring the window displays.
after tat i start ppl watching.

i suddenly realise, where is ME?!!

some time back,
huiyian - "belle, hw come you dun wear all your A-line skirt to work already?"
me - "oh yea hor. i din realise wor. why?"
huiyian - "you look more formal with A line dress"
me - " orh. but nobody see also"

yesterday i realise dressing up is not only for others to see but for myself to feel good.
seriously when i look into my wardrobe recently, i feel pretty down.

hanging inside are my pretty dresses and tops but how often do i utilise them to their maximum power?
seldom wor.
apart from the usual dresses i wear for work, the skirts are rather left on their own. collecting dust in my wardrobe.
why dun i wear them anymore? no idea? perhaps not enuf tops to match the skirt?

recently as anyone who noes me will noe ive been shopping online. sometimes way tooooo much!
however i still have items not worn from these buys in my wardrobe.
and strangely i dun know where shd i wear it to. weird.
weekends im pretty much in tee and shorts.
until once the bf mention - hw come you always in tee and shorts.
occasionally i try to wear nice tops with shorts.
but the thing is i dun reali go fancy places that requires me to dress up.

my jeans are all well iron and tuck in one of the wardrobe space. waiting to be taken out for an outing.
sorry!
weather in spore is blistering hot. i perspire/lose water easily. so i dun like to bundle too much.

i like pretty stuff , or shd i say i go crazy over pretty stuff
i buy n buy n buy but i dun utilise all fully.
sooooooooooo
i start to look sloppy
and i no like it!!

tis wk end im g0in to dig out the not-yet-wear pile of clothes and clear them nx week.
tat way i wun feel guilty if i buy new stuff.
i wear pretty, i feel pretty!

boring!

im becoming more n more bored with my mundane life.
serioussssslllllyyyyyyy nuthing special at allllllll......

apart from the ongoing CNY festival, its pretty just 'dead'.

this CNY did a teeny weeny damage to my waist line. slightly expanded a bit.
its hard to resist gd home cook food on the tables of almost every close relatives' homes ive visited.
serious!
hw is anyone to resist:
chinese herb soups
roast duck/chicken
abalone
steamboat
curries (yes, curry is still pretty much our tradition for every CNY)
and all the great yummmyyyyy CNY goodies!

put aside the damage, the red packets did justice to my depreciating bank ac.
it put the red digit out of the red. woo hoo!
not a lot but not bad ,for nw is the bad recession period :)

CNY is ending in about another 5days.
anyone wants to gif me red packets??? pls call/sms me!!!
hahaha

after CNY its back to serious studying mood!
im such a slacker. haaah

i run out of things to blog liao.
bye!

tinker 'guai lan' bell

Thank you mag BABE for tinker bell!
:)

p/s: i tink my tinkerbell is liked me! tinker 'guai lan' bell.... LOL LOL

happy birthday

happy birthday to my dearest baby!
as much as i get on your nerves time to time, you know i love u a whole deal!

:)
muackz.

ps: i wanna blog a whole long post but its not loading up my pics. shall do it later.

your age or your shoe size?

one should behave their age, rather den their shoes sizes.
ironic isnt it? tat often we do act like our shoes sizes.

hi, im ah koon

here i intro a new, mild tempered and super leisure dog!
ah koon!!





:) uber cute although bull dog not very attractive.

where is PB?

where is PB?
hardly see her anymore. or rather at all.
sigh.

im sorry baby

im sorry baby
i dun mean to lose it.
i reali reali rem it was placed in the box.
*no intentions meant to anyone*

i had it for 4 yrs, now its gonez.
heart pain.

even a new one wun be the same....

:'(

im such a klutz..

STORM..

sometimes when you think the sea is peaceful, its jus the beginning of a big storm.

what more can i ask for..

a friend asked me this question that got me thinking.

"ARE YOU HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU HAVE NOW? SATISFIED?"

the old me would have immediately answer - no la! i wan xxx and xx and xxx, etc

with the end of 2008 and the beginning of 2009, ive realised there are much more and too much i-would-love-to-have.
but i realise compared to many, im already v fortunate.
i should count my blessings.

other den a job stability, there isnt much that i dont have.
happiness dun come in terms of wealth.
rather it comes with the fufilment you feel in life.

i used to resent/envy/grumble why ppl have this , why ppl have that but why doesnt it happen to me.
but when i/we do tat, why dont we think of it another way - i have food on my table, cloth to cover my body and a warm bed where i can rest at nite.
what abt those ppl in the 3rd world countries?
what do they have?
i bet they wish for a great deal less den what i have been doing.
to them, a shelter, food (even jus a slice of bread) is god's gift to them.

honestly, i am grateful for what i have till date.
i have an eccentric but loving family, extended families.
i have a bf whom i love and whom i believe should love me also la. hahaha
i have friends. not many but enough.
i have the ability to buy myself clothes/bags/shoes and most of the stuff i fancy.
im blessed with adequate brain capacity to start on my degree studies.
i hv fun colleagues.
seriously theres more den what a gal can ask for.

if i say i dun wan to earn big bucks, travel everywhere, have beautiful stuff, IM LYING.

but right now, at this moment, there is nothing more i can ask for.

thank you , everyone and anyone who added/contributed to my current fufilling life.
:)

xoxo
ffz~

where are you?

i haven change but you have.
and its so much i dun recognise you anymore.

seasoned traveller or seasoned prat??

hey excuse me you all great and mighty seasoned travellers!!
i tot its COMMON SENSE to check all your travelling documents before you leave the country.
Now you have probs with whatever, you scream at me.
hey plssss....

is this fair or nt?!

in the first place i am NOT a travel counter.
I am just doing my job.

one day, let you all take my role den i see hw you will fare!

and my name is ISABELLE not ISABELLA!
Duhz!

mr flu mr flu, pls go go away

just woke up from a drowsy rest.
super zzzzz now.
whole person still like spinning around.

yes yes, mr flu struck me again.
cough, headache, running nose, BLOCKED NOSE!!!

i reali cant stand block nose.
im sleeping with lack of oxygen. nearly wan my life.

jus taken my porridge,
now goin to grab a shower, take medicine and wait for my bed time.

ohh, and lots of vicks vaporub.

no more blocked nose plssssss.....

coughing out,
ffz

let go and live it.

2008 make me seen thru many things.
i learn to look at life from a different angle.

ive learn to let it go.
let go of the tears, the hurt and the sadness and just accept the way things are now.

im rather disappointed but im glad i know what should i do from now on.

im growing up!

:)

goodbye 2008, hellooooo 2009

for 2009 , i am going to embrace it with a new image.
ive decided to do
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SEX CHANGE!!... i always secretly fantasize abt myself in beards n lovely goaties. hahahaha

PUI! no la... i decided to be farnie and post a pic to freak all of you out.

i should be typing out my new year resolution but i cant think of much nw.
EXCEPT TO CURE MY COMPULSIVE SHOPPING BEHAVIOUR.
haha. serioussssss....
with the economic on a down now, i nd to reali try to control.
i know i know. i ve been trying to curb this behaviour but its reali hard.
tsk tsk tsk BAD BELLE BAD BAD GAL.
LOL.

anyway 2008 hasnt been really good for me and i hope 2009 will be a much smoother year.

today's NYE!
hereby i wish everyone a happy new year and all the best for 2009!!!

xoxo
feifeizhu!

p/s: coincidentally this is my 500th blog post. gosh, hw cool is that.
hahaha

near a pc!

my fingers are itching!!

sian. i shd nv be allowed near a pc when the 'itch' starts.

hahaha

Yantai 7-princess Xmas Parteeee!!!

Thank you baby!

santa knows ive been a gd gal this year.
so my baby bought me a xmas present....
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woo hoo!
xoxo baby!!

MERRY XMAS FOLKS!

days to saying BYE BYE 2008 and hello 2009!

:)
merry christmas to all.
sorry i cant sms you cause it refused to be sent out.
oh well...
anyway best wishes to all , clear out 2008 and await the arrival of 2009.
cause its gonna be a blasting good year.

with this, i send my love, hugs and kisses to all!

to be revealed... akan datang

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--> a kimono top that babe knws i ish liking!

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--> handmade and only one available by my babe!!!

i ish love the presents babe gave me. she rem what clothes i like, she rem i dun have much accessories. and she made one with love for me.
:) awwwwww.
i hope you like the presents i had for u.
its not much. but there will be more to come in special occasions, happiness or sadness.
(oops sound like marriage vows, hiak hiak)
2009 is here already! it will be a fantabulous year for US!!!



Thank you babe!!!

xoxo
ffz~

streak of bad luck

i guess 2008 aint really a great year for me afterall.
towards year end, i still receive bad news.
i guess in this area, ive been reali tat unlucky. stupid.

feeling bit demoralized nw. but i guess i got to suck it in and do my utmost for wat will come.


*feifeizhu demoralizing out*

Organic Chocolate Cake ((Vicky))

Got intro to organic chocolate cake by our group leader, alvin.
its not bad.
800gm for $24. :)
Its at holland grove.
the chocolate cake is not too sweet, with a tinge of mint taste.
slurps.
if you wan bigger size, you will need to preorder!

so what do i do on week ends??

besides going out, what do i do at home???

I PLAY MONOPOLY!!!!!



its such a mean game. sitting there for hours, waiting to see who bankrupts first.
surprisingly thru this kind of games, you can sort of see who is best at planning strategically! not me though! hahah

After monopoly gets tiring??

I WAIT FOR SOMEONE TO COOK ME DELICIOUS NOODLES!



this pot of noodles is really one of a kind.
maggi noodles with lean meat, tomatoes, veges, egg, prawns and chilli.
oh, not to mention the sweat and passion preparing it for an hour!

:) :)
xoxo
belle

Xmas is around the corner

lets do a jiggle!

JINGLE BELL
JINGLE BELL
JINGLE TO NOEL
BATMAN SMELLS
FAINTING SPELLS
XMAS IN THE WELLLLLLLLL!!!

HAHAHHA

such random lyrics popping out of my head.

:)

The new past time - prawning

singapore is fast becoming a country with nothing to do.
yes, nothing.
its boring to stick to just shopping, movies (i dun watch much), eating, ktv-ing, what else???

so the bf thought of a new past time - golf & prawning.
yup! golf range. not for me though, too energy draining, lol.
prawning is fun though, when i have run out of patience.

the top record is 40+ prawns with 2 rods.
lowest record - 1 miserable prawn.
hahaha.
guess its a test of luck as well.

the gals decided to join me for prawning one night.









xoxo
belle
:)

i jus want to say i heart you!!!!

its the season to be jolly!!!
falalalalalala

xmas is here again.
when xmas is here, it just marks down that another year is passing like the wind.
whoosh!
gd bye 2008 and HELLO 2009!

before i start lamenting what damages/sins/hardships/torture i went thru in 2008, i tink i'll jus skip to the happier stuff for now.

have been booked for a few xmas dinners and get together by the lovely ppl ard me.
this dec is a fucking brokez mth.!!
haha
and i haven even liked start on my xmas present yet!

sorry peeps, this yr isa is coming out with budgeted xmas pressies!

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ppl are asking me for wish list (or rather i bullied them into asking me for a list, wahahahah)
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mummy's been acting real strange lately. one min she's giggling in a reali WEIRD way, nx min she's jus staring blank.
its scaring the hell out of me.
ive try talking to her, asking her whats bothering her, but she's keep all zip up abt it.
den she started going liked - "even if i go crazy now, no one will care, no one will know."
oh fuck.
its really really creeping me out.
i just hope she snaps out of it.
if she's unhappy with J, jus let him know. he's old enuf to handle the truth man.


im monitoring her.
if possible i'll try to stay home as much as i can!

:)

on the happy side, office is closing on 26th dec! woo hoo!

xoxo
belle aka isa!