he's leaving on a jet plane, he wont be back till sunday

Ling left for bangkok already, without me.. sobz...

he ask me to be good this 3 days. he better be good too there!.

miss u ling.

take care.

hope all goes well..

sighz.... its onli been 3 hours... his plane still in the air now...

Lin Zhi's Wedding

First wedding dinner since i joined Yantai Raffles.
Joyous oocasion for Lin Zhi. Congrats.

BEAUTIFUL house

mag invited me to her crib as she just renovated it.
her hard work, time n money paid off.
her house is ...one word .. GORGEOUS.
one of the pic shows a starbucks pic on the kitchen wall. n its hand drawn n painted by her n her hubby DOM.
her two babies are very guai. goofy and micky..
one hick up for the day - got no idea how come mag's camera end up in my bag. sorry babe.
but lucky manage to get it rectify and she can still take gorgeous pics of her, her hubby, their crib and their frens.

gosh, i really exceptionally LOVE her room.

hee.

broke a nail while doing it

went for a bowling game with rose, jol, ew & keong today.
was damn fun... although i din get any strike... sad dao...
after bowling we went for a spin... with the windows down.
sorry jol, ur photo is just too cute to NOT post it.. haha...
i broke my nail bowling. pain. but lucky i din go for a mani yet.

: so real : so right :

Don't let someone become a priority in your life,
when you are just an option in their life.....

Relationships work best when they are balanced.


We make them cry who care for us.
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.

This is the truth of life., its strange but true.
Once you realise it, its never too late to change.

amazing. truly amazing.

http://www.crunchyroll.com/showmedia?id=81717

disoriented. disturbed.

have been feeling disoriented recently.
liked really out of sorts.
been damn stressed with lots of bills and back logs.

i hear calculators tick tacking more than i hear my hp buttons sound.
feel really dratful

i really need to learn to manage my finances well.
n yes, i really feel that credit cards are a liability.

guess i better not bring the stupid card out.

got to clear all the bills and start a new managing plan.
damn!....

even my appetite is going against me
i keep eating full 3 meals and i dont like it.
it makes me bloated.

everthing is darn....

disturbed now.
signing out...

-我不 ..... 心里不知道 -

haven been sleeping well recently.
past one week, i feel like there is something heavily weighing on my chest.
i seriously duno what is wrong.
i dont have work issues, or relationship issue.
maybe i m a bit broke but not to the extent i will harp on it.

i have been having weird dreams. nightmares for some.
the dreams are related to family, to dead people, to ghosts.
its creepy.
like last nite, i dream that grandma wanted to give me a msg.
but how true, i seriously dunno.
right now im in the office, liked a walking zombie, with a hot rush feeling at my chest.
i wanna yawn but i cant.
cause its stuck.
like stuck in the windpipe not wanting to come out.
i wonder if there is anything wrong with my health.
i tried drinking coke but it doesnt help.
i tot i will onli feel this way when i get feelings in me.
but strange, im feeling it now.
i cant breathe properly, cant inhale properly.
sobz..
i dont feel good.

- DONT get me wrong. its reali not r/s problems. i m feeling a MEN MEN feeling.
like as if there is a 'me' dying to come out of the physical big me.

i NO like this feeling.
it makes me cannot sleep...
and i cant concentrate on my work or anything else.
:(

is there something bothering me?
how come i dont know...

i really dont like this feeling.
anyone can help me?
please....

shd i go pray instead... maybe i'll feel better after telling the LORD.
hmmm...

i need good sleep... please.....

my obsessive addiction

my new lovely babies, soon to be delivered.

淘汰 - EASON

我说了所有的谎
你全都相信
简单的我爱你
你却老不信
你书里的剧情我不想上演
因为我喜欢喜剧收尾
我试过完美放弃
的确很踏实
醒来了梦散了
你我都走散了
情歌的词何必押韵
就算我是k歌之王
也不见得把爱情唱得完美
只能说我输了
也许是你怕了
我们的回忆没有皱折
你却用离开烫下句点
只能说我认了
你的不安得到你信任
我却得到你安慰的淘汰

random-ness

its a random thought and a general feel.

i think its a gender thing.

balls and brains can never function at the same time.

should i?

thinking of taking studies in fashion marketing and management...

should i?

i like the sound of it.
and the thought of me all up and VIBRANT....

haha...

a thought!

life is BORING n Stress

just took my lunch.. feeling bored and sleepy.
recently been hitting the sacks ard 10plus, latest 11plus. but how come i still feel so tired.
yawnzzz...

no one to msn now, ppl r online but all busy with their duties.
why? ? ?

fren: den surf the net lo.

but theres nuthing much to surf on the net :(
boring daoooooo......

been having nightmares recently, cant really rem the scene or story line (*maybe like wat xiuhui say- better dont say out)
is it reali ri you suo se, ye you suo meng??
whichever it is, something's been bugging me but i reali duno how to say.

just one last time, i need to release the stress in me.

o_0'''

-steamboat-

R.E.A.L.I.T.Y

Reality sinks in when your mood is calm and you are at peace.

but often reality sucks

but den again, im used to it.

sense of Direction

i think i might have really reach the point of not understanding to be able to blog about it.

can anyone tell me why women are able to PEE with evidence of it on the floor??
and mind you, the cubicle is a sit-down kind!
-_-'''

maybe like jolene said - maybe the fellow use the ''zha ma bu'' stance so like this lo.

but hell, our office toilets r pretty clean and auntie cleans it liked twice a day wor.

if u reali wan try the horse stance den cant u jus go to the squat cubicle? thats what they are there for.

so duhz....

OH! u can say the squats ones are smelly but do u think by leaving evidence on the other cubicle will make it any nicer smelling?

:: random pics of ppl who makes me smile ::

- my family ...



- my gals' 'guys'





--> my gals



- fanatic 4!



- my lil honey boy



- me, qinwei & xiu hui ~ my travel kakis! (next trip : taiwan)



- me n michelleeeeee



- me n baby trina



- me and Val



- me n mama rose



- me n jon. my poly buddy



- me n ms elsa who i meet like really once in a blue moon ;(



- me n mag! - we are gonna meet up soon ya!


pls note the photos are not in order of importance. all are important!

:: Peace at heart ::

夜的宁静
是时候好好反省

月的阴晴
圆缺就像我的心

夜下着雨
天在哭泣
不知道何时才放晴
我忽然非常想念你

你的背影
让我失去了理性
你的放弃
让我迷失了自己
你的离去就像刺青
永远烙印在我的心
是如此痛而如此的美丽

我努力的想哭泣
却哭不出泪滴
一次又一次的灰心
才发现早已麻痹
终于发现自己
已经不在乎你
原来分手
也能如此安宁

:: what am i to you :: - norah jones

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Vast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin true
What am I to you

Yah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue
Tell me darlin true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you

~ where are ur manners? ~

if you dont want to eat, the least you can do is inform people not to cook ur share.

its not the first time you are liked this already.

how do you think the house owner feels?

a puzzle piece

stop this qns u should know wat are we in n what we should be like past.

:: Dead ::

i have been having this feeling of wanting to wake up every morning with the one i love next to me.

suddenly today, i snap out of my dream! wake up my darn bloody idea!

this is not going to happen.
not now. maybe not in the near future.

went coffee with jon just now.
he's right in some ways.
im just like a fish caught onto a fishing rod, but i have not idea the fisherman is pulling me up or just testing the bait.
pulling the hook and urging me forward, thinking it will be the end to my torture but actually its just pure slow torture process.
the fisherman just pull the bait, and release the tight hook again. so in other words, its just a fishing tactic.
moi: ''den why dun i just cut off the line, that way i will be free again''
jon: ''in this case, do U want to cut off the line, or r u so hooked on?''

** thinking**

have i fallen into the trap of love again?
falling for someone who is playing the pull n let go tactic with me again.
im sick of being lil miss nice.
calling, caring, smsing.
to me it means care n concern, to the other party, it might just mean - wooho shes coming on strong, maybe i shd just back away''...
i think this is how it should be.
i m more direct, if i care i care, why shd i pretend i cant be bother.
but towards society of opp gender now, i think i shd just learn to develop my new method of ''heck-care''

maybe i was right all along.
maybe i really aint suitable for a relationship, much less marriage.
its scary how ppl can smile at you on tuesday, then cant even be bother to even glance at you on thursday.
two days make a difference.
what if it is a matter of a lifetime.
i am scared.

when we get into a relationship, it sort of adds an invisible burden on us, but it might be a gd kind of burden if we meet someone who shares our part of the burden.
but if not, it will just be a liability.
得到时有负担失去后会心寒...

i enjoy the feeling of being woo, but i dislike the feeling of being pull n push.
if u have the ball in your court, its fun.
but if u r outside the line, its just pure bullshit.

i dont react violently doesnt mean i condon this behaviour.
its just cause i am pure immune

feeling down

im feeling down
perhaps i was too pushy...

perhaps u have enough...
im sorry...

i guess i cared in the wrong way.

moody

when one say hopes are high, often the fall is greater. much more greater.
hope is what one gives to console oneself in times of unhappiness.

is it the weather, the mood, the people, the surroundings that changes a person?
i can smile and giggle with u right now. next min, next hour, next day, i just dont even want to look at you.
why r humans like this?
temperature fluctuates as easy as having a fever.
your temperature will either get higher or lower.

right now. i m running a high temperature....
dunoo what to do...

guys

guys like gals who play hard to get....
why?
does it feel so good to their ego?
isnt a simple and accomodating gal good enough?

guys make me puzzled..