wont it be 'scary' if there is such technology available everywhere

e song that brought tears to my eyes

Cried for a longest time

i cried with heart-renching sobs.
tears pouring down,
and chest aching every minute.

im letting the pressure get to me.

all you do is whine to daddy

had a hilarious chat with moi mama this morning while i was getting ready.
apparantly someone is a daddy's boy.

months ago, he called looking for mops:
moi - she not in lei
he- where she go. how can i reach her.
moi - she go bali lei
he- huh. den how. i want to ask her abt work
moi - aiyo, you all cant work without her meh (jokingly)

apparantly he went to complain to daddy.
and daddy apparantly lecture mops by hinting directly that i do not have manners.

HAHH. i find it fucking funny.
1st: i Am NOT insulting you
2nd: i DO HAVE manners which i display at every suitable situations that allows me to
3rd: EXCUSE ME, HOW OLD ARE YOU??!!

i do have manners cause i m brought up well.
for some ppl, i beg to differ.
n yes i m GUAI-LAN.

SO?!

如果你也听说

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞

许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说

夜把心洋葱般剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多

如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我

好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得又无可奈何

如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
懂我的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔

~*~ sighz ~*~

i hate it when my happiness is based on your generosity.
what will be me if you dont feel generous?
reduce to a pile of frustrations.

this shouldnt be the way.

love is a give n take process.
i love you for your good n bad.
should it be vice versa?
certain times ur blunt attitude is liked a kick to my gut.
and i so absolutely dislike that feeling.

you may not be the best.
i may not be the best.
but we should try bringing out the best in each other.
accomodating each other

we cannot get rid our difference definitely.
but we should try to balance it out.
minimize the conflict.
thats why sometimes i just dont feel like picking up a quarrel.
cause it gets on my nerves..

ROARRRSSSS

i dont like it.
ranting n screaming is so not me.

i like to iron out the problems, the differences.
i want us to be happy.
dont you?

donut craze

-long queue



- yummy donuts

oh well
i finally surrender and queue for donuts.
yes me. queuing for donuts at the ever so popular donuts factory.
but i got to say the donuts are really not bad.

haa... but i think the next time i'll q for it is when i m too free on my off days.

:P

where are you?

i find it hard to keep a smiling face recently.

everything/everyone is getting on my nerves.
why is it so hard to communicate with people?
all i want is a little concern

where are you?

NO!

why do i always feel cold when i face any forms of rejection?
why is it the word NO bothers me? irritates the shit out of me?
why do i feel the need to sigh whenever i come face to face with the word NO?
i thought i should be used to it already
i thought i AM used to it already.

guess its not a matter of getting used to it. but rather a matter of being able to face up to it.
face up to rejection.

even when my spirits are low, and i get really down. there aint much ppl i can turn to.

i is tired.
tired of holding my own emotions in place.
tired of not being able to tell myself to chill.

when i dont have it i fight like hell for it.
when i have it, i fight like mad to keep it.
but fighting takes a darn load of strength off me.
is this how things should be?

qinz told me she's tired.
tired of the mad race. racing ard time, racing ard feelings. racing ard him.
i can understand how she feel.
its a wild cat race.

i guess its just like how i told mag:
we cant expect any differences between us or anyone to disappear.
the best we can do is to balance it.

less pressure.
more pleasure? perhaps...

living a life with no worries.

i wanna live a life with no worries.
with the gentle breeze blowing at my face.

LV bag in the search for a new owner who will appreciate her!

Hello everybody!
im one of the LV member.
Im now in search for a new owner who can love me like her second skin.
my current lover has to leave me cause character clash.
Please contact feifeizhu if you are interested.

*winks winks*

what to wear?

how many of you have this same problem as me?

not knowing what to wear the next day.
opening your wardrobe n realising every pc of clothing you have looks old to you.
i face this problem EVERYDAY or maybe not.
saturday/sunday im usually deck out in tee shirts n shorts.:) being a slacker.

but i get this wardrobe-not-well-stock problem from monday to friday.
i dont know what to wear for work , what shoes to match and what bag to bring.
i may sound bimbotic, but trust me, this problem occurs to most gals.
and my problem isnt liked having to match my clothes like how victoria beckham does.
i just need clothes that i feel comfy in, that makes me feel presentable.
AND without my direct boss having to say - ''eh AUNTIE, y wear until like that''
-.-'''

its not like im deck out sloppily or anything. maybe just not as classy.
but hell, classy is expensive!

sighz.
i dont know what should i wear for work tomorrow.
~headache~

sorry

sorry i couldnt help even though i really wish to.
some things really not within my means
i hope you will be fine!

Thank you my love one

every lil step u take towards me, towards us, makes me smile deep down straight from my heart.

i love it when u lean on me
i love it when u hug me here n there
i love it when u put ur lips on my hands, on my cheeks
i love it when u call me girl out loud

i thank you.
thank you for your acknowledgement, your actions.

it means more than hearing you say it out.

secret - 不能说的秘密

Went for my plan 'secret' date on National day with Ling.

Met Jay & lun Mei at Cineleisure.

i tell you. the show is very good.
the suspense is there.
totally unexpected for me.
for ling who was bit bored at first during the show, he agrees with me that Jay really directed a good show.

for those who haven watch it,
expect suspense, laughter, tears and unexpected twist.

Qinz, Xiuhui, quick go catch it lah... :P

我叫小雨, 你爱我吗?

how?

this?



or:

this?

my 'secret' date

SECRET is Jay Chous directorial debut that deals with the memory of first love.

This is the first day Lun is admitted to Tamkang Secondary School. When he walks around the campus, he meets Yu (Kwai Lun-Mei) in the music room who is playing a mysterious piano solo. The two become intimate friends and spend a lot of time together. Whats the melody you played the first day we met? asked Lun, Thats my secret. Yu whispered in his ear.

One day, Lun asks Yu to meet him at the music room. But accidentally, they did not meet and Yu never shows up again. It seems that Yu has disappeared from this world.

Later, Lun gets a photo of Yu, but what surprises him is that Yu is standing next to his father, Chiu (Anthony Wong) on the photo! The secrets behind Yu and the mysterious melody are going to be unlashed...


NOTE:
Jay , wait for me.
remember our secret date on the 9th of August...
heez....

how do i??

how do i let you know how much you mean to me?

Well, U mean the world to me.

i dont like

i dont like:

- the whiny isabelle
- the easily driven to tears isabelle
- the moodless isabelle
- the love to cry over everything isabelle
- the lonely isabelle
- the ultra sensitive isabelle
- the love till the last day isabelle
- the shopaholic isabelle
- the paranoid isabelle
- the accomodating-all-the-time isabelle
- the snappy isabelle
- the cranky isabelle
- the lazy isabelle
- the good-for-nothing isabelle
- the angry but keep quiet isabelle
- the insecure isabelle
- the no-confident-all-the-time isabelle

i seriously dun like the isabelle now. at this very moment. frightened.

i is really frightened now.

kel's birthday dinner at mimolette & PARTY at Thumper - 03.08.07

our miss kelly tan decided to hold her FIRST bday party at her 25th big day. :)
dinner was a cosy affair for a few of us at mimolette.
after dinner we went to thumper where it become a bigger affair with her friends from all walks of life coming to wish her a happy birthday.
mounts of hugs n kisses. (on the cheeks! only koochie can kiss lips. hee)
i hope u like the pressie babe.
and a great Party!.

:)




- THUMPER (p/s: huge coaster! kel kel i want i want )



- mimolette. cosy n romantic place.



- zan, cindy, kelly



- furfurangel, pure-blondie, feifeizhu.



- kelly and her koochie.



- groupie!



- smile!



- US after such a long time.



- the day feifeizhu meets fellow blogger : furfurangel.



- cheers everyone!


- a surprise cake from her co-workers.

Birthday Stars today!

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to esther & kellyyyyyyyy
happy birthday to you!!!!

for esther i wish:

you happy always.
your kids will be bright n obedient...
you will stay cute n lovely always!!!!


for kelly i wish:

you will be happy in what ever you do.
stay pretty n lovely always....

(see you tonite!)

:)

millions of hugs from isa to both birthday stars

pls help. pls vote and let me see your views!!

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or:

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or:

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fellow friends pls help me!

which one will u choose? *isa in a dilemma*

(a)


OR

(b)


is it a or is it b?