...mistress?

feeling like a mistress.... hai.....

photo whoring

rainy season

recently its like the rainy season. every where is rain.
morning/noon/night....
to b honest i enjoy night rain... cause its cooler to have a good night rest.
but i hate afternoon rain n evening rain cause on my way home from work i will get my feet wet. yikes.....
think meantime also stay away from sentosa... in case rain spoils the whole day itinery.

its my 5th day at work.
haven been doing anything.
reading up on company's profile, upstream news on shipping market, filing, printing and running errands.
to be honest its really a bit boring....
boss says to enjoy the honeymoon period of slacking while i can.... sianz....
but its like everyone is doing something n i'm not so its really bored..... feel redundant....
so far so good the people here are rather friendly. ranging around my age so its ok....

month of dec coming n my pocket goin to have a hole
birthday, first month celebration, housewarming... OMG, kill me please.
$$$
can anyone tell me the fastest way to get money? PLEASE DO NOT ASK ME TO ROB A BANK OR SELL MY ASS!
feasible ideas.
think soon i'll wan to post my xmas present list... haha

stay tune!!!

time check : count down to 25days......

signing out!

happy birthday MUMMY!!!!!!

happy birthday to the most precious person in this world wide world ---- my dearest mum

happy birthday to uu
happy birthday to uuuu
happy birthday to mummyyyyyy
happy birthday to uuuuuuuuuuuu.....

hugz & kisses:
frm ur naughty daughter.

first day

first day at the office today
guess what - my boss is sick so officially i hang around and do nothing until 6pm....
OMG!!!
and office no usage of msn.
sian.......

back

he's back ~
should i be pleased or pissed?
i really dont know.
its not the hurry about ipod but more liked whether is it "du re ru nian"
sighzzzz ~~

H.O.T

weather so hot..... really cant take it anymore....
even with drizzles of rain, the weather is still scorching hot and temperatures are rising.
my heatiness n temper is also rising
my air con is down also. the air that is coming out of the air con is liked MINIMUM lo.....
haiz... how... what to do.
very broke, dont know want to get some one to come and service my air con or not lei.....
i think it has something to do with the solar system. the position not right lah.
i think wear minimum also doesnt help....
gosh... help.... i want eat ice cream!!! cool off!

get me one tub of ben & jerrys!!! NOW!!!!

woman & pampering....

woman love to pamper themself. so no doubt i m one of them. haha.

went to get a trim and touch up on my hair. endure the long 1.5 hrs.

after 1.5hrs, my head feel lighter by 0.2kg, n one shade lighter and fringer shorter. and worse, wallet bigger hole. haiz.... but all for the sake of one thing - BEAUTY.

not that i m pretty. so that is why i need to rely on extra pampering.

haa... bullsxxx!!!!!

ciao!!! ~

In Too Deep . . . . .

i think i am in too deep for you.
i realise its not puppy love. not an infatuation. but honest n serious mature feelings.
i don't like it.
its scaring the wits out of me.
and its making me really dumb.

a msg for QINZ

dont cry too long if u lose that special someone.think hard!why are you sad? is it cause u love him? or r u jus feeling all weird inside of you cause he's not there anymore?cry when at that moment he break off with you or he left.cry when he turn his back on you but dont cry if you know he love you!if you love him, tell him that. Get him back!....
if he doesnt love you anymore, jus be glad he ever love you.remember the good and forget the bad.if he still loves you, prove/show him you love him as much.and if you do get him again, hold on to him cause the next time u were to cry again will be the day he propose to you.....

an old blog posting but still an existing resolution list

i was browsing thru my multiply page, the one i have been using until i decided to use blogspot for my online blogging.
i came across a piece of blog which i still smile when i see it.
the first piece was in mar, follow by an update in july.
now the latest here in my blog page.

the piece goes:
happen to come across this blog dated jul 15th:

wish:
- i can be more independent. to be able to face up to everything. - erm, still ok.
- to be more confident - still very much lacking
- to upgrade myself - no time now. haha but will get down to doing it
- to love myself more - not trying anymore but its a MUST
- to make more time for family and friends - arranging!
- to get back what i lost - once lost, hard to regain
- to lose fats and not gain it back (=P) - haven even accomplished 1% , pretty much the same.
- a new hp - erm think since last year still the same hp. nokie 7610. a bit lagging liao. any sponsor???
- a new wardrobe - still adding (haha!) FOREVER
- to earn more $$ - i must!!! i have to... cause i want go somewhere really nice for my 2007 birthday
- trying to get higher pay job - erm on the path to finding it
- to have nicer hair (haha!) - shorter and frizzier.... darn!

see the difference now.... haiz..... haha the red comments are added for this post. haha.....
its cool to have a blog, cause after that i can look back and see past life what have i been doing.... basically NOTHING.... haha

break ups and the common reasons. DUHZ!!

year 2006 marks alot of break ups among my circle of friends.
if there is getting together, there is sure to be break ups....
forever? ever lasting? - does this really exist.
of course personally i've seen a lot of great matching couples, and i am really happy for them.
but often each of us has a sad story behind every great ending. we will definitely hit a bad patch or experience bad moments in the path of our love life
well, its been almost half a yr since my own break up , and well, im coping.. still living my same boring life. haha.... i wasnt thinking this way until recently. i thought break up was really hurting... like really really pain. but recently the demise of my grandma made me realise break up is just 1/10 fraction of the pain from losing a love one forever. that pain is really really bad...... the kind that causes my water tap t0 keep flowing and flowing and flowing. its like a bad tap leak.
every couple breaks up for relatively few similar reasons:
- character clash
-feelings fade
-third party
-fear of commitment

think these are the few usual break up reasons that each n every of my friend has to take for their break ups.
character clash, some people get together and in the process learn n understand more about the other party. during this process, we can know if we are suitable or not. but if one of the party terms a break up due to character clash when they have already been together for like 5-7 years, that is really a bit duhz.... isnt it obvious enough during early times if two are suitable or not. if you are still in your early teens, i can understand caus you haven experience the difference a working environment can make to you. but if you already reached your 20s , then i think you should be having a clearer head to think clearer. correct me if i m wrong. but isnt this the case??? if you say u never place a r/s close to ur heart to understand if your characters are suitable den there isnt any r/s to speak of.
feelings fade ??? - every r/s starts with a spark somewhere and it is up to the couple to keep the sparks alive. dont expect it to stay alive and not having to do anything about it. it is so stupid. in every r/s , starting is ai qing, when it reached a comfort zone, it gradually becomes gan qing. this is liked a norm for everyone. gan qing is when u really get to know a person already. really love a person for who he or she is. if feelings fade, what is the reason? no more sparks?
3rd party - this is nothing to comment on. both party are at fault. sorry all 3 parties are at fault.
commitment phobia? - this is one general reason GUYS give when they break up with gals. they have too much in their thick skull, they decided they cant face the gals, knowing marriage is on the cards. but HEY, who are u all to tell us whether we want you guys to marry us or not. please this is liked the 21st century. not just because u are good to us, we expect marriage round the corner. there are many factors for marriage and many different reasons for marriage. trust me, we gals are not really that keen to pounce on marriage without thinking also. its like a forever thing you know. marriage is not cheap and so is seperation after that. so just dun base everything on your own thinking. if we want marriage, the most we will is talk about it first. everything can talk. that is one of the reason we have mouth and 2 ears. to Listen!!!

i m not an expert when it comes to relationship.i still read man are from mars, women are from venus. haha. i m still learning.
i have my own problems as well. but hey i want all around me to be happy.
to my recent gal frens who just broke up with their other half, cheer up gals. all are fated. dun pressure yourself. take a short break first. make urself pretty. pamper yourself. after that listen to your heart. see what it says and where it takes you. cry if u have to in the initial stages but after that you will realise its not that you dun wan to cry but instead nothing comes out.
you can call me anytime if you need anyone to talk to. u all got the number.
cheer up babes!

photos

i tried blogging on the previous post but din came out.. darnz.... this post has better work!
the first car is my favourite...small and cuteeee.... but i got a perchant for fast n slick car. the lambo (last pic), way cool..... wanted to take a pic of a lexus baby but too bad, too many ppl sticking their asses at the seat of the convertible, dun wan to take pic of them so i din take any pic of the convertible.... haiz......
i heard another motor show coming in december and this time its FOC... sure to have many ppl.... hmmm, see if the gang wants to go take a look... haha

my week end.....

oh well.... friday night what did i do? let me recall... haha..... oh yeah fri i met jena to walk ard orchard and did a bit of damage to my wallet... haiz...... but i just resist the lil girly dress and MEL bag that can put all my junks...... hee..... after tat had dinner with val and came home.... GUAIZ.....

sat i rot at home the whole day.... until evening i went to meet pabu to go chalet..... it was great seeing him..... love the feeling..... haha.... he never fail to cheer me up when im in the crappiest mood....

sun... (today)... had breakfast at coffee bean.... den chill a lil. after noon i went to si ma lu with pabu to pray... we walk around a lil den we went to meet to meet ed, bao & fen to go see the motor show..... lots of beautifullllllll carssss... make me so tempted to go take my licence, in case some of you dont know, i have a phobia for driving.... blame it on lousy coordination for my legs and hands... haha....
but the cars are so gorgeous... for some... but this year the show girls standard dropppp...... still a few cute ones here n there but honestly DROP!
went dinner after the show and came home.... now resting on my bed and nuahing... goin shower... will blog again......

p/s: just some pics with this blog.... if you all like cars, u all should go take a look..... might spoil some nice ones that u like

nadia birthday

i think this is a long awaited post but somehow no one wants to be reminded of this day, n the day after and the day after.

but still i wanna post the pictures of family.....

baby isaac aw j.y

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well, at least there was a good news yesterday:
roselyn gave birth to a healthy baby boy isaac. weighing 2.935kg.....
he's really a cute little bundle of joy.....
and me being one of the godma look forward to being part of this new young born's growing up life.

congrats rose & ew for being first time daddy & mummy!

my pain and missing

haven been blogging for a while... was really busy.... its been a very sad sad month for me. a very very painful memory.
i love to watch TV drama and i never thought one day i will be in an actual scene myself.
it hurts liked mad to see my grandma drift away from unconsciouness to non-existent. i couldnt do anything. no amount of tears or words of comfort can bring her back. she is just in real deep pain. pain that is tormenting every part of her body. pain that just results in her vomiting blood everyday in her unconscious state. its horrible.... i couldnt take it. i couldnt accept the fact that the one whom i have known n love since the first day i was born was leaving me... and in this really horrible way. she dont deserve the pain n torture. she had suffered when she was young, so why make her suffer now? perhaps by leaving she is free from all the pain and she will find happiness in another world.
when i hear the equipment signal still life , my heart just stop. tears just flow. i couldnt do anything but whisper to her that we all love her and we just want her to be happy.
everyone will miss her but still we let her have the choice as to which way will she be happier. that is what we can do for her.

note to everyone: thank you for your concern and visits. i appreciate it.