thank you for your hurt.

you HURT me in the most indirect but awful way.
you push the slightest memories we have to the deepest corner of the pacific ocean.
somewhere where you know you wun remember and will not be able to reach for it.
you let me learn that loving is not just giving in all the time
you let me know that my love is just a burden.
you let me hate the words - 'no' 'no need'
you let me feel like im commiting slavery to myself.
you punish me long enough.
im sorry now.
im just really sorry now for loving you too much, it hurts.
if you love me, will you hurt me?
once, now, future, you made/make/still makes me cry. or shd i say SOB.
i dun wanna think anymore
my heart is weeping