a plead

i want to plead.

i want to plead to GOD.
please let lil preston get over this obstacle.
he's just 3months plus old. he's so little, so brave.
If he can survive the 8times operation, pls let him survive this time.

when i was at the hospital the past few days i start recapping the day ah ma pass away.
i really dunno how i can handle this thing again.
how do u react when u see ur love one pass away in front of you?
you sobz u agonize, but theres nothing u can do.
all u can see is ur love ones with tubes and needles poked into them.
ah ma lived for a good 60+ years... but preston??
he hasnt even got the chance to call me jie jie, pls dun take him away.
i haven got the chance to cuddle this lil cousin in my arms and do baby talk with him.
pls dun let him leave....

theres too much happening recently in jus less den a year time frame.
death
seperation
dumped
misunderstood
everything.......
im losing my sanity soon.
i really dun think i can handle anymore blows....
its draining.....

god, please.....