bothered

feeling all hot and bothered now....
weather is freaking hot. air con is permanently spoilt.... damn!

but deep down im feeling very bothered...
the fixture from the past is in my heart...

every indication, every action, every word speaks a thousand meaning.
every laughter
every wink of the eye
every reason
every thing....

ive decided i aint goin to decipher all these meanings...
cause we cant live our life based on assumption.
so i guess its just better left alone...

like xue li said:
when u want to forget something/someone, u will onli think of it more.
but when u jus let it go with the flow, you will remember the thing/person but eventually the hurt just aint that tight in yr heart already.